No one's life is perfect, but everyday is a new day to make it so.
I miss all the adventures I had in California. Moving to Texas has been the best and most challenging choice I have ever made. I graduated from university, found a job, and moved alone to Texas pursing a career I thought I wanted.
It was, the perfect start. I was the picture perfect post-grad student. Big career job, new marriage, new home, everything was going perfectly for six months.
And then I got a notice 2 weeks ago that I may be losing my job.
Scott and I bought our first home on Monday, found out I would most likely be getting laid off Tuesday, and had my car stolen on Thursday. It was a solid week of firsts and excitement.
I know what it probably sounds like. EXCITEMENT? More like stress and heartache right? I decided years ago, that I would be resilient, regardless of my circumstances. This is no where near the worst thing to have happened in my life, and my attitude remains; if I lived through that, I can live through anything.
I got a call the following Monday that my car was returned, and we were so relieved. Regardless of the damage, it was back. Yesterday, I was laid off of my first "Big Girl" job post-college. I have always set such high expectations for myself, I sometimes feel like I am crumbling under all the pressure. My husband is so courageous and kind during this time. We had talked for several months what it would look like if I pursued blogging and youtube. With no following, no other stream of income, it was just an idea floating around. Now without a job, blogging, and youtube are all I have to do now. I need a job. I need a purpose, and I found it through this medium. That being said, while such new is not exactly good, I chose to stay positive. Challenges are just that, something for us to work through. I think for me, that means focusing on the journey ahead.
This is an incredible opportunity for me to slow down. At 22 years old, I have never really taken a vacation. I have always had the next steps planned out months and years in advance. I had to run out of steam sometime. The photo taken on the right, was at 6:35am in Dallas, TX. Scott was driving me to the station, to head to work. It was this last week, and it couldn't have been more beautiful. I look back now, and realize it was a gentle reminder that all glory and beauty in this world is there for us. We have to choose to enjoy and take it in.
Good luck my beautiful dreamers. But do not let yourself only be that.
Visit my youtube page, to see my color run, and me fall down a couple seconds into the race:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bsjd827SX6g&t=37s
Photos taken on my iPhone: In Dallas, TX, Oceanside, CA, and Mesquite, TX.
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